Well Hello... Hello

It's been almost a year since Bitchy Girl posted her last entry. To recap, I broke up with my then boyfriend. Things are still a bit bitter between us. The ex-boyfriend did so much stuff post-breakup that I hated him. When I broke up with him, I thought we could be friends. But blehhh I guess that never works. But it has been more than a year since the breakup and well, we are on the very superficial 'hi-bye, hows the weather' talking terms.

I guess I never really told anyone why I broke up with him. I guess it was because I did not see a future with him. He is not the type of guy that will fight for what he wants. He doesn't have dreams. He will forever be in this stagnant state of life. The last I've heard, he has already graduated and is still bumming around. 6 months of unemployment, spending his parent's money. There was a job opportunity that came by but he rejected it because 'the pay was too low'. Pfft. I'm glad I dumped him. I feel that a person should work regardless of the pay is or the job description. Just work temporarily until he gets a better job. Owh well, guess that is just me.

On another note, I'm in another relationship. Been 8 months and I guess the whole honeymoon period is starting to fade away. But I'm not too fussed. I guess in every relationship there are ups and downs.

Till next time. Toodles.

It Has Been a While

It has been a while since I last updated.

What's new?

Well, slutty boy has left his cute boyfriend and is now in an abusive relationship *sigh*

I broke up with the bf a few months ago. It was bad. I brought it up. He cried. It has been 3 maybe 4 months? and we are still not on talking terms. Fine! Let it be. Not my problem you can't handle things like a man. When I think back, I'm so glad its over.

we are never satisfied with what we have. when we are treated too well, we get bored. human beings are selfish period. but isn't that the way the world works?

and owh, got my first ever Tiff <3

Been really emotional lately *pfft whats new.

till next time *toodles

I think slutty boy has forgotten about this site. hmmm might kick him off the blog and fly solo haha

It Has Been Long Since The Last Post

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Too much effort..

We had a long chat today, He was okay at the beginning of the chat, everything went well, he said he likes me a lot and there's nothing to worry about and also, he said.. seems like we're going really well. After hours of chat, he tell me have doubts about the longevity of the relationship. Wanting to stop dating and just be friends.
I don't really know what he after, but seems like he is playing mind games. I like him very much, I tried to convince myself, if I don't go chasing around, maybe he might come back?
I know the answer deep down in me, but i refused to believe.

I have been thinking all night, i nagged to my friends, i cried, i hate myself for what have been done and said. But what I had learned tonight is, don't get attached too easily, you will probably be the one who get hurt, am not saying everyone out there are bad person, its just that commitment is not as easy as it sounds when you actually wanna do it. Promises are sweet words, men thinks with their penis, they will say anything to get your attention and get into your pants. They will move on after they got what they want.

As he wish, I will meet him for the very last time, I know I will go through this, I wanna be strong and not the weak one. I don't want him to think he can be the player in this mind game and manipulate me. He also said he wanna cuddle and kiss, which I know what he's trying to do. You guys have a guess, I bet you guys know what he's trying to do.

I am on with this game tomorrow, yes I admit I will probably cry, but I will get through eventually! After all, I'm just a ordinary gay guy with flesh and blood.

I won't be hoping for anymore love stories in my life, I don't wish to write it anymore in my story. Life is too short to be wasted, I will enjoy as long as I live.
I treasure my friends as they will be there for you whenever you need them.

To all those players out there, You guys should think how many people you have played and PEOPLE who actually believe in love will extinct in the near future because of YOU!

YES YOU ARE TO BLAME. AM NOT BEING OVERLY DRAMA ABOUT THIS. IF I SAID I DON'T HATE YOU NOW, I AM LYING!

This is the gift I prepared for his coming 21st Birthday. I will give it to him even though he rejected me. His loss, I have had willing to offer him with much love and much more surprises in the future, but yea.

Thanks for reading my pathetic story of the year!

xoxo

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i am feeling fucked right now! i thought i was getting lucky! but i was so wrong! i fall in love with this fucker! he's a player, ive been asking comment from friends and everyone says he's a player!
i am really upset now. i dont know how i actually feel, i feel like ive been played again.. im feeling like a bloody fool. i dont know what i did wrong but i always got treated this way! i am not hoping for anymore fucking shit love happy fuck up cunt to make me happy and sad!
I DONT WANT ANY FUCKING RELATIONSHIP OR SO CALL STUPID DATES ANYMORE!
TO ALL THOSE FUCKING SHIT PLAYERS OUT THERE, I HOPE U GUYS WILL BE PLAYED ONE DAY U WONT EVEN REALISED IT! FUCK U BITCHES! I HOPE U GUYS WILL GET IT ONE DAY!

Friendship Should Be A Two Way Thing

I have this friend. Let's call him W. W is a dickhead. We have been friends since primary school and before W started dating, everything was fine and dandy. When we were in secondary school, out of all the male friends primary friends that I stayed in contact with, W was the closest. We always lepak together even after I moved house, we still stayed in contact.

After he broke up with his 1st gf, we used to hang out a lot, mamak all the time, drive around in Dove's kelisa and stalk people's houses *ahhh those were the days*

W's personality in person rocks! He never fails to make you laugh and is always very courteous to elders (my parents). But the thing with W is that every time he has a girlfriend, he will instantly disappear. He will be sooooooooooo engrossed in his girlfriend or "babydoll" or "baby" as he would call them that he would just totally ignore us. Even if we called him for outings he will always decline, say he is busy or just totally ignore your messages.

If we saw him online, we would usually greet him but he will always reply "eh gtg shower, eh gtg, ttyl, busy etc."

But! Every time he has relationship problems, I will always be the one he turns to. I have told him numerous times that he IS AN ASS for doing this to a friend! and he is aware of the fact that he neglects us as friends the moment he has a girlfriend and yet, he still hasn't learned.

Recently guess what, we started talking again.. and yessssssss you've guessed it right! He was having some relationship problems mainly due to the distance factor between him and his girl friend. Spring break has started and he just returned to his hometown.

My msn messages asking if things worked out between them was given a cold reply of: "thanks for caring" and he just left without saying anything else. I know that he was not busy and was still online because he did not go offline until quite sometime after the message was sent to me.

I feel that we are only his friends when he is on the rebound. Dear W, friendship does not work that way. I have had enough of only me being the friend in this relationship and I have waited too long and have given you too many chances to "step up" and be my friend for once.

W, I feel that this is where I draw the line. As friends, I do not think that the way you treat me is justifiable. I wish you best of luck with your girlfriend and hope that when you have problems you do not have anyone to turn to as friends are not objects that you can dispose when you are occupied with something and retrieve when you need an ear. I shall bid goodbye to our friendship as you have silently pushed me out of your life 'again'.

There will not be a next time. This time I am smarter!

Good riddance!

Has Had Enough..

was his personal message. How I wish that was directed to me. At first instance I thought that he has had enough of this relationship but turns out it was not.

Sometimes I hope that he would just dump me because I cannot bear to break his heart and dump him first.

When is my time to have enough?

My personal message read: No Air. In some sense it is so true. When I am with him I feel like he is controlling every aspect of my life. As much as I try to ignore his whims and fancies, I still feel controlled. When I was out last weekend with my girlies, I bumped into him.. and when he got home guess what he said to me: "Can you dress like that the next time you go out with me?" I did not know what to say at that moment. Part of me just wanted to dump his sorry ass there and then. But I said sure.

Trapped.